My mind seems so blank

After a week full of stress, I don’t know if i will get a breather. These days, everything is so hectic that I don’t even have time to unwind, and my only time spent at home is on evenings and I cant even spend much time bonding with my son. I so miss him, and I’m a bit guilty on not being there when he needs me, and most especially I feel sorry for myself because I’m not there to witness his milestones, like his first step. I know he walked when we were not around, but I guess this is just the price to pay for being a full time working mom, some things just needs to be like this..
I had a very stressful week these past days, and I think its not going any better, I just got some time updating this blog since I cant go to sleep now, I did not take any coffee and yet my system isn’t showing any slowdown,I mean my mind. There are lots of things going on in my head, one of this is giving my husband a massage.Oh how can I do that when he’s already sleeping like a dog, and I am dead tired, yet my mind is so active. Any idea on how to do it with just using brainwaves?

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Joy and Happiness

You know, the ancient Egyptians had a beautiful belief about death.
When their souls got to the entrance to heaven,
the guards asked two questions.
Their answers determined whether they were able to enter or not.
‘Have you found joy in your life?’
‘Has your life brought joy to others?’

This made me think of the life I am living here on this earth. Am I worthy to enter heaven? Those two questions require reflection and I can try to evaluate myself by looking at the relationships that I built over my lifetime.

Have I found the joy in my life? At this point I can say that my husband and son and the home that we have built is the joy that I treasure most. Looking at us is enough to make me feel blessed by God. Ours is a very young family, young in the sense that we have yet to encounter a lot of good and bad experiences that will certainly shape up our relationship. It really helps that our circle of friends are there to exchange words and ideas with, or simply to be each others mirror. The friendships that I gained along, and the family that I was born into and raised me I consider them my joys too. They help me achieve my fullness, e.g. self-actualization ( I don’t know how to put this in layman’s term). In other words they help me become a better person.

Has my life brought joy to others? Hmmm. Hard to say, but since this is something I need to answer, I must say yes, if you consider my husband and son as others. Looking at myself I am neither a saint, nor that evil. So probably, somehow in my little way, I brought joy to somebody. Maybe, my parents because once in my life I was their bundle of joy. While my friends are still there for me, so I must be a source of joy for them. As they say, everything in this world are intertwined, everyone is related, in a cause and effect sense.

I am so glad I finally came to see how this mind-reflecting dialogue was delivered, and it helped a lot that Morgan Freeman’s voice was the one saying this.